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Hello, you've reached the Doctor, not at the TARDIS, well, maybe at the TARDIS, won't know until I answer, leave me a message after the TARDIS engine sound if you've got one, just a "please help" is fine although more details would probably be good, whatever you can manage, and I'll get back to you, and maybe save your planet, ta!
[Followed right after by about a second of the sound of TARDIS engines, followed by the thump of its landing.
Feel free to leave a message for the (eleventh) Doctor here!]
April 21st / Locked AF AGAIN / Video
Date: 2018-04-22 09:13 am (UTC)[DEEP BREATH CLOSES EYES. SIGH.]
[Need to let go. Need to breathe. Need to just... not be all blahs, but...] I'm glad. I'm glad he told me. I'm glad he felt that intensely. [Clenches fists.] Because your future just... [Lets it alllllllllll go. The anger, the sads, her entire body tension just slumps becoming jelly.] Doesn't want to feel anything.
[SCRUNCHES FACE UP. DEEP BREATH. TRIES NOT TO CRY BUT--]
[She's angry and hurting, so yeah, she's crying.] And yanno. I get it, all right? That I hurt him. That much. [DEEP BREATH. HUFF. SIGH.]
But it's not fair! And I don't know how to fight for myself in all this!
[DRAGS palms down face.] First he tells me he's NOT jealous of Jack, never was, and just pitied him. Then I told him if that was true, so he could take it back, then I was gonna go sleep with Jack and serves him right. That was when he got suicidal, and stupid me, I didn't even put that together until now, I just thought--
[Frustrated growl!] But he, both versions doubled down all, nothing to be jealous of, Rose! [Hand flail.] Make me feel REALLY smart about throwin' everything away for him! So then-- [Sniffles and hiccups, and shakes head.] He, both of him, were with River at the dance and I just figured... fuck it and just did what I wanted.
But honestly....
{BAWLS.]
I would have if I'd known!!! IF he'd just told me!!!
[CRIES MORE.]
[Okay. She's okay.]
[Sniffles.] And then when I told him... he slept with Jack too. Idiot. Jerk. Stupid. Asshole. Fucking. Idiot. Jerk.
[Deep breath.]
[Hiccups again.] And yanno. It makes sense. Now. At least. Even though he's so stupid he went and forgot all of it because he couldn't handle it and apparently I depress him that much, and I still made him promise to not miss his chances with others... because to hell with what I want, right? [Hiccups again in a sort of chuckle at herself.]
[And shudders.]
And after the concert I told Guitarist off. That he can't just... say he'd be lost without me and then when I try to joke that away to give myself what I need, he was like-- [ATROCIOUS MIMIC OF SCOTTISH REMEMBER HER STINT IN SCOTLAND? IT HAS NOT IMPROVED.] "No really, Rose, just because I moved on doesn't mean it was better."
An' I finally just let 'im 'ave it. Told him to stuff it. Because Jack and I didn't just move on. Or make do. And it makes me really mad!! YANNO?! Because Jack shouldn't been abandoned. And you should'a told me! And you DEFINITELY shouldn't'a let me seal myself off in another universe without any capacity to talk to Jack or see him again and I never even said goodbye!
Uuugh... [Sad flomp to the side.] Please don't you go gettin' suicidal too on me now. Because I'll tell you the same thing I told Guitarist. I can't just... ignore that. I can't just LET you want to be dead and not try to do something.
[BAWLS.]
HOW BAD OF A PERSON WOULD THAT MAKE ME?!
Bad enough I already DO make you suicidal, but then to just LEAVE IT THAT WAY?!
[Sorry, Rose is incommunicado right now, just crying hysterically.]
[GOOD LUCK ELEVEN.]
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Date: 2018-04-22 10:14 am (UTC)Where he was just exasperated as hell over Ten, though, there's a glimmer of real anger in his eyes about Twelve. His previous self had been a live wire, a raw nerve, an cleansed but open wound--what the hell was his future's excuse?
At her attempt at a Scottish accent, at least, there's a faint flicker of a smile--and a more melancholy one at her worrying about him being suicidal. Has she met him? Really, it was taking things exceptionally far even by his previous self's standards...]
...can't help but try to help, eh? Even to help someone who'll fight you ev'ry step of the way, no matter how it hurts to try and make it better.
[He smiles a touch more earnestly, there--he's both a bit proud of her (if not particularly surprised), and reminded of a certain decision he made that he's pretty sure she still holds against him.]
Don't you worry, I've got too much to do, still, cleaning up my old messes, and apparently a few I haven't made yet... not especially looking forward to that, but I gather it's a while off, yet, for me.
[He pauses just a tick.]
...d'you want to come over? I could put tea on.
[...and it's harder to be a comforting presence through a screen, and she seems like she needs comfort more than advice, at the moment.]
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Date: 2018-04-22 10:23 am (UTC)[She pulls out of it about to object to, and even fight him with regards to cleaning up, there was nothing he needed to do except--]
[Listen and be her friend. And as he offers tea, the fight dissipates into another smile and another nod.]
Uh-huh. Thank--
[Blinks...]
[Furrows.]
[B L U H.]
Where are you though?
[Because um. She'd rather not be in River's TARDIS, and also she's sort of banned from Amy's presence. :T]
[SIGH.]
[She should look after her stupid boys.]
[She doesn't want to.]
[They have each other. She wants to ditch them and RUUUUUN AWAAAAAAAAAAAAY.]
[Lays on side again.] You don't have to clean up after your past or future. They have to clean up their own messes, Doctor, otherwise you won't get to be you in the present.
I do want hugs though. [P O U T S.]
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Date: 2018-04-22 10:35 am (UTC)[He was inclined to think of it that way, himself, and he already got scolded plenty by River for being reluctant to embrace it as such--even if she sort of turned around and claimed some prerogatives in that respect anyway, but that was a lot of complication he didn't want to toss on Rose's shoulders.
He's a bit amused at her admonition to be himself, though, and raises his eyebrows, tugging lightly at his bow tie.]
Have you seen me?
[Seriously tho can you look at this face and tell him he's not being himself in the present?]
Anyway, everyone cleans up after their pasts, that's called life, and, well, time traveler, frankly surprised I haven't had to clean up after my future more often, so don't you worry about that. Just pop on over, and I'll have a nice cuppa waiting with your name on it, not lit'rally with your name on it, although it could if that'll help.
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Date: 2018-04-22 10:39 am (UTC)[Nope. She doesn't care if River says it's his, River gave up a heart for it, it's River's. And also River is the daughter of the TARDIS??? OR SOMETHING?????? And Rose who was literally SOUL DEEP in the TARDIS feels weird about that.]
[There's a small smile at his question though.]
[BITES HER FINGER HARD.]
[EVEN IF IT IS RIVER'S TARDIS...] Yeah. I want it with a rose on the cup.
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Date: 2018-04-22 10:52 am (UTC)He'd already gone through this mess with River herself. He even had his older self (where did he get the nerve?!) getting on his back about it! If it were someone other than Rose, and he weren't so worried about her state of mind, he'd be a bit cross at getting interrogated so pointedly about something so personal. As it is, he just sighs exasperatedly, with the nearest thing he gets to a shit-eating grin, which is more like "oh, good, I guess we're doing this now."
Because the alternative is admitting that it's kind of turning several knives, and he the last thing he wants to do at the moment is let her feel like she's hurting him. Especially with the nonsense his previous and future selves seem to be pulling.
So instead he just gives her a look like she's being a bit of a smartass, and grins and bears it.
And sends her the coordinates.]
I mean the TARDIS, the one I live in, have lived in for two-hundred years. I'll have it ready by the time you get here, so don't sit about worrying, there.
[And don't quibble with him about TARDIS ownership pls+tyvm.]
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Date: 2018-04-22 11:00 am (UTC)[Turns her right hand to show off her guild mark!]
[But she's already moving outside... but she is literally not setting foot in River's TARDIS. YOU WILL HAVE TO PICK HER UP AND CARRY HER FROM OUTSIDE WHERE SHE WILL JUST STAND THERE LIKE AN UNINVITED VAMPIRE.]
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Date: 2018-04-22 11:24 am (UTC)The Doctor raises his eyebrows, then just gives her a dubious look.]
...not sure they'll appreciate my using their tea set, but that's fine with me, if you'd prefer.
[...if she's taking over the tea-making duties, she'd better let him know before she gets him in trouble with Mirajane.]
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Date: 2018-04-22 11:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-05-25 04:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-05-25 04:41 am (UTC)[AND INDEED: when 11 gets there, Rose has tea, chips, and other assorted pub-esque snacks around. But not fishfingers and custard because that is for Amy and him.]
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Date: 2018-05-28 10:06 pm (UTC)Hello, Rose, ooh, what've we got here, then?
[Because he's a goddamn child and may have gotten distracted with the unexpected array of snacks.]
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Date: 2018-05-29 01:18 am (UTC)[There's also: pretzels, popcorn, peanuts, crisps, and cookie-style biscuits.]
[Rose however hold up a fried zucchini stick.] Want one? They're a bit like tempura, yeah?
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Date: 2018-06-15 04:41 am (UTC)[He takes it, giving it an experimental whiff as he glances around. ...maybe looking for something to dip things in because who doesn't like dipping things.]
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Date: 2018-06-15 04:55 am (UTC)action
Date: 2018-07-04 11:36 pm (UTC)Oh, yes, that should work.
[He brightens, then dips the zucchini in the honey mustard, and munches on it merrily.
...at least, for a few seconds, before he sort of freezes and gulps, peering down at the uneaten half, his voice a bit hoarse as if he just realized what soylent green is made of.]
...whot-... is this zucchini?
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Date: 2018-07-04 11:42 pm (UTC)Oh my god, you're not allergic to that too, are you? Are they the main ingredient in aspirin? Do I need to get dog charcoal?!
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Date: 2018-07-06 01:09 am (UTC)Re: action
Date: 2018-07-06 02:40 am (UTC)[Pause.] Oh. Right. You weren't here for that.
[CIRCLE DOODLES WITH HER FINGER.] Fluffy got suicidal and took an aspirin. Part of why Jack, Martha, and I were all taking shifts so he was never alone. Most of our fights before you came were about that. I was scared of making it worse.
What's wrong with zucchini chips? I like 'em! [Noms!]
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Date: 2018-08-28 02:07 am (UTC)I'll be fine.
[He pauses a tick, snagging a pretzel and dipping that in the honey-mustard sauce, and giving her an amused, skeptical sideways look.]
...dog charcoal?
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Date: 2018-08-28 05:21 am (UTC)Re: action
Date: 2018-08-30 01:58 am (UTC)Re: action
Date: 2018-08-30 02:05 am (UTC)[Leans her head towards 11 in a half-hearted hug.]
Re: action
Date: 2018-08-30 02:26 am (UTC)...don't think I'd say worse.
[She's not quite as bad as she makes herself sound at the moment... and even if she were, he'd never hold it against her the way he holds it against himself.]
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