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Hello, you've reached the Doctor, not at the TARDIS, well, maybe at the TARDIS, won't know until I answer, leave me a message after the TARDIS engine sound if you've got one, just a "please help" is fine although more details would probably be good, whatever you can manage, and I'll get back to you, and maybe save your planet, ta!
[Followed right after by about a second of the sound of TARDIS engines, followed by the thump of its landing.
Feel free to leave a message for the (eleventh) Doctor here!]
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Date: 2018-04-22 10:26 am (UTC)[He was already a bit confused by her reaction, but whoa, when did he say anything about seducing anyone?!]
Oi, I didn't mean like that.
[If she's offended at the idea of him thinking she'd do that, he'd triple-offended at the idea of her thinking he'd think that. ...he might have just a little bit, because again, vanity, plus old habits, but that was such a small part of his thought processes he barely even registered it.
The Doctor makes a face and lets out a breath, doubly uncomfortable both at the talk of seduction and Rose getting upset, and at the thought of having to actually explain himself better.]
No, I meant... him. ...me, my... future. I've had... dark episodes, Rose, even Sandshoes hasn't seen all of the ones I know about yet, and I've only had glimpses of some, and I don't want you to get hurt.. more.. because of them.
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Date: 2018-04-22 10:41 am (UTC)[... Okay probably not. She couldn't even seduce Jack. He just loved her because she loved him so much she made him immortal. It's complicated.]
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Date: 2018-04-22 10:55 am (UTC)[Cold. Quiet. Icy. Flat.]
[Idiot.]
[Sweet idiot.]
[How to phrase this without hurting him.]
Um.
[Idiot.] You pointed a gun at me. I told you to blow me up to save the planet. You sent me away how many times? I nearly destroyed time and space, exactly how many times? Five? That we know of? I made Jack the Face of Boe. I shot the devil out of a spaceship into a black hole.
[DEEP BREATH, NOSTRILS FLARE AND EYES FLASH ANGRILY.] In order to get back to you using my dimension cannon, I got to experience over and over my own private hell, that I lit'rally told Ted here that I genuinely think was constructed just for me as revenge by the Devil for the black hole thing. Because I got to find you over and over in varyin' states of dead.
Your future isn't bloody capable of hurting me. [Growls.] That's the problem. There's nothing he can do to hurt me anymore. As hurt as I get? It's all me, not you. I'm untouchable, Doctor. [Eyes flash and she looks a lot more Bad Wolf than not, even without the glowing gold eyes.]
Darkness I can handle just fine. [Feral teeth bared.] It's everything else I can't.
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Date: 2018-04-22 11:19 am (UTC)For a moment, he almost gapes at the way she responds--but afterward, he seems more dismayed than convinced.]
Rose... ...the only way to be untouchable's to build a suit of armor to hide away in.
[Metaphorically or otherwise (although they tended to go hand-in-hand, eventually). He was pretty confident that wasn't really the case, here, but hearing her talk that way had rattled him a bit, in all honesty.]
...I'm not saying you can't take it. ...but you shouldn't have to, not from someone you trust.
[Also he really means more than just disappointing her, but...]
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Date: 2018-04-22 11:41 am (UTC)[And then that statement.]
[And she just shakes.]
[And paces about her room.]
[She can't even cry. She's angry again.]
[She doesn't want to be but...]
[But letting it go is exactly like she told him.]
[Raw. Defenseless.]
[Finally:]
[QUIETLY, and not looking back at the camera phone:]
I'd rather be hurt a billion times over than give up. You know me.
And... it's too late. For the armor thing.
[Gently fingering a tack board of pictures on the wall.] That was over the second you left Jack behind.
[Finally back at the camera phone.] I'm unbreakable. Your mistake was always assuming I was fragile. Track record, Doctor. You've died a ton. Jack's died even more. I've never died. Not once. Remember what I said when I was angry? 'Bout Jack and River? That's why. Because it's stupid. [SNARLING IN SPITE OF HERSELF AGAIN, though she keeps it 1/2 under control.] I'm more durable than all of you bloody combined. [Eyes flash, truly angry again.] I've already been through hell and poured the time vortex into the dalek emperor's head. You got mad at your clone for genocide, but so what? I already did it once too, and the daleks are never evar gone for good are they? [Grinds teeth.]
I didn't get this way because of you. I got here in spite of you. And if that's part of me you can't stand ta have around you? [Throws hands up in the air.] No worries, you don't have to see it 'less you drag it out, all right? But I'm not a weapon, I'm not a soldier, I'm not a TimeLord, but I'm also a billion times tougher than all o' ya. So I meant what I said. He can't hurt me beyond what I allow. And what I allow? Is on me. And I can't allow anything, because he's too bloody fragile and broken. See? I'm not that stupid. I get it.
[She's also not so stupid as to think this doesn't kill him too. And she wished she wasn't... this way now. She told 10 before he brain-wiped himself clean of it that it was being a live wire, she'd always been this way, but now she had no insulation to protect everyone else from her. And the Doctor....]
[Just seemed so determined to grab her with both his hands bared.]
[And maybe it would shock something resembling sense into him. But probably not, it was the Doctor, after all.]